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1. Was this a good year for you?
It was one of the better ones, I'd definitely put it up there with sucessful years, granted 2006 was such an abomination I'm not really surprised that I had a good 2007...anything is better than a year when your best friend dies and your whole life shits the bed.
2. What did you do this year that you'd never done before?
Lived on my own. Taught myself that it's okay to be callous sometimes. Reinvented myself as a girlfriend. Pieced a live freight. Went to a show in a different state alone. Stayed in a hostel. Got a "yellow line violation." Never dated a boy from Massachusetts. Fell in love like they tell you not to fall in love. Tattooed my ribcage. Took a stand of my own in a relationship. And most importantly, went vegan!
3. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
The whole "New Years' resolution" thing is bullshit. What makes a new year any different from any other day? People should instead make resolutions to change something that they don't like everyday and stick with it. Don't like how you feel when you stay up all night and get up at 5am, then fucking change that. You don't need a new calendar to reinvent yourself, take that day for day. The only "resolution" I have for next year is that I'm throwing in the towel with my old art styles and picking up something new...oh yeah, and my resolution is for you to lose weight.
4. What was your favorite moment of the year?
I'm not entirely sure that I could pin-point one specific moment that blew my mind. I had all these earth shattering moments when I could really feel who I was, deep inside my skin. Those moments blew my mind. Those moments taught me why it's great to be me, and why I'm okay with not succumbing to the idea that I have to be anyone but myself. Otherwise, the night I saw Superbad in theaters was a pretty wonderful night for me, heartache aside.
5. What was your least favorite moment of the year?
I had a lot of heartache this year, just painful feel-it-in-your-chest kind of hurt, and I don't think up until very recently I was able to fully get over that. I think one of the harder moments for me was around the anniversary of Brian's death --I had to really swallow the fact that he was gone, and I had to learn how to solider on and it was very hard for me to even get out of bed that day.
6. What would you like to have next year that you lacked this year?
I think I've already got it, I developed a stronger sense of myself this year. I came to terms with the fact that I'm callous and heavy hearted all in the same. I'm definitely an enigma in my own skin, I was finally able to meet someone and be like "This is who I am, you're just going to have to like it." and I realized that it's my truest friends that love me for who I am, no matter how unique and difficult I may be. I didn't have this skill all year and that led to some significant heartbreak.
7. What date from this year will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
August 17th, 2007.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Gosh, I had plenty. A few would probably include becoming Vice President of my class, getting on the Exec board of the radio station, becoming a Resident Assistant, Dean's list, realizing who my best friends are, and coming to terms with who I am, I cannot say that enough. Realize who you are, love who you are...once you hit 18/20, you're not changing and you've got your whole life to live within your own skin.
9. What was your biggest failure?
That 800 dollars I lost Shaw's kind of sucked, but it definitely wasn't my BIGGEST failure. I just had a lot of failed relationships over this year, and one of them was a really big failure for me because for the first time I was able to be comfortable with who I was in a relationship and my life choices (and his) got in the way, I guess...then I just snowballed into a lot of stupid shit that helped me learn that I was actually a catch and I should wait it out for someone who was worth it. I don't believe in failure, there is always a silver lining.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I got this fucking weird strep/fever/migrane/104 temp mix that got me into the emergency room back in September, that was pretty sweet. Then I had a few colds, but it's not the HIV...I'm still kicking it.
11. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Whose behavior didn't merit celebration? There were plenty of opportunities for celebration, all of which were taken in full swing.
12. Did you breakup with anyone this year?
Oh, who did I not break up with? Yeah. "Quantity, not quality..." Thanks Phil.
13. Did you make any new friends this year?
Plenty, actually I probably made more friends this year than I have in a long time. I made some friends that have become like best friends to me this year, I fell in love with someone I met this year, there's someone in my life currently that I met this year...Life is a constant pile on of new people...You're constantly becoming more of who you are with all the new people that you meet.
14. Did you travel outside of the U.S. this year?
No I did not, in fact...I barely traveled. I don't think I left New England, save New York.
15. How many different states did you travel to this year?
New Hampshire, Connecticut, Rhode Island, New York, Maine...I'm a New Englander...I can drive in any direction for a maximum of 2 hours and hit a different state, usually.
16. Did you lose anybody close to you this year?
No, not to death at least. I lost some good friends though due to drama or something of the sort, that was painful.
17. Did you miss anybody in the past year?
This question baffles me, there isn't any given moment where I'm not missing someone.
18. What was your favorite movie you saw this year?
Tough call...I see a lot of movies, and right now most of them are escaping me. Reign Over Me was amazing, Superbad...Those are recent movies I've seen, mostly because I can't think of anything.
19. What was your favorite song?
"...But You Are Vast" by Crime in Stereo, "Three Cheers for Five Years" by Mayday Parade (Yep, I'm queer.), "Walking Home" by Ceremony, "Make Tonight" by Emanuel, "Accident Prone" by Jawbreaker, "When One Eight Becomes Two Zeros" by Glassjaw...I've got to stop, I could go on forever with this question.
20. What was your favorite album?
Without question "Crime in Stereo is Dead" by Crime in Stereo.
21. Favorite TV show?
Dexter, Criminal Minds and Man vs. Wild.
22. What was the best book you read?
Oh gosh, I read so many amazing books. Invisible Monsters, Diary, Lullaby, Choke, Fight Club, Survivor, Haunted...all by Chuck Palahniuk who became my favorite author this year...A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseni, Candide by Voltaire, God is Not Great by Christopher Hitchens, Mother Night by Kurt Vonnegut, The Innocent Man by John Grisham, Boom by Tom Brokaw, the Harry Potter book was pretty good, Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen, The Book of General Ignorance by John Mitchinson, The Heroine Diaries by Nikki Sixx, The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen Covey, Einstein by Walter Issacson...then the 30 thousand crime books I read, I could go on forever. I read so many books every year. If you haven't read any of the ones I just spewed off, then you need to go out and get them.
23. How many concerts did you see this year?
This question is absolutely useless for me. In March alone I went to 9, if that doesn't give you some direction as to what my life is like, I don't really know what will.
24. What was the funniest moment of this year?
There wasn't one specific moment, I had a lot of really amazing funny moments this summer especially and these last couple of weeks being home. I could never in my life pinpoint one moment that would go down in history as the funniest moment...Although my mind cannot help but go back to JennBerry and I going back and forth and consistently missing our stop on the Subway in NYC and giggling our asses off.
25. What did you want and get?
More perspective.
26. What's one thing you wished happened this year?
I had enough conviction to move out permanently.
27. Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
I'm not ashamed of who I am, we all do things that we look back on and cringe, but I'll never ever be ashamed of decisions I've made with my life, I may jokingly say that I am...but I asked for it, I did it. I'm okay with coming to terms with that.
28. How much money did you spend this year?
A shit ton, per usual. I don't have exact figures.
29. Where did most of your money go?
The MBTA, cigarettes, food, tuition, shows, the gaykick...
30. What was the best thing you bought?
My sidekick, even though I jokingly call it "gaykick", I do think that it was a sound investment. Coming second of course to my college education and every book that changed my life this year.
31. What was your most embarrassing moment of the year?
Most likely when Shea and I broke my bed and had to come out of my room and explain it.
32. If you could go back in time to any moment of this year, what would it be?
August 17th, 2007.
33. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My 20th birthday, moving out into my own place, kisses...It doesn't take much for me to get excited.
34. Did you fall in love this year?
I have no problem admitting that I did, I don't regret that one bit...I fell out of love too, but with every rise there is a fall.
35. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I went to Kevin's the day before, at 12 o'clock started taking shots with Gavin, Jim, Kevin, Humphry and whomever else was there, then spent the next day with Kevin, went and saw Blacklisted/Shipwreck/Ceremony in one very orgasmic show, then went back and raged at RDD.
36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned this year.
Heart means everything. Follow yours, accept it for what it is.
37. What are your plans for the next year?
Hone my stenciling skills, gain a lot more credits, get a relationship right, read some books, go to college, and see where my life takes me. Thats all you can do, concrete plans will inevitably lead to let down.
44. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"You're no good for me. My formulated drug.
An acquired taste awaits to sate this unrequited love.
It tastes so gray, yet necessary to sustain frustration.
Take just enough to get you fucked up, not so much that it drives you away.
A constant escape. The magnificent restraint that it takes to stay away, I've no control at all.
I constantly dream the memories invade the things I keep with me.
I'm getting high on the roof of the world.
You are the bent and blackened spoon. You are the butane.
You are the bedroom. You are the improbable excuse for the horrible things that I do.
You're no good for me, but I guess not bad enough.
Because on quiet nights I come to find you crawling through my kick drum,
hell bent on deliverance of all the privileges of being with you.
Heaven sent, I crane my neck to watch you desperately march down my chest, enjoying every step.
Emphasized by distances we never intended.
You come crawling back through my regrets to remind me of what you said.
We're no good at this." -Crime in Stereo
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